Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Theme Song To My Life
At first I wanted to pick Middle Class Rut's song "New Low". But I feel like sh*t today, so that's probably why I chose it. But a theme song has to last through your ups and downs and stay relevant, so I needed to pick something else.
Then I was thinking Ke$ha's song "We R Who We R" would be a good song, but then I realized I'm not some show on MTV where everyone gets drunk and sluts around. So that one was cut.
And then I found it. The song that was meant to be my theme song. "That Green Gentleman (Things Have Changed)" by Panic! At The Disco was made for my life. "Things are shaping up to be pretty odd." My life is odd. I am odd. I can see this song playing while a video of me doing all this silly stuff I do is running.
My life has never been normal. In school I've always been that weird smart girl who loves to read books. I was bullied all the time for being a brainiac. In high school, I was very "straight-edge". Never did drugs or drank alcohol. And where I went to school, that was far from normal. I get weak at the knees for old books. I like the way the smell when they're slowly decomposing. (It's a bit vanilla-y). One of the items on my bucket list is to pet or feed a hippo. And now I have this crazy, wacky disease. I'm meant to be odd. And the older I get, the more accepting I am of all my quirkiness.
I'm going to tell you a secret. It has to do with theme songs. One of my many, many dreams in life is to have my own reality show about my life. It's a narcissistic dream that my more noble self deplores. My life would have to get a lot more interesting though. I didn't get pregnant at 16, I don't drink copious amounts of alcohol, and I'm definitely not rich or a housewife. I'd much rather use it as a tool to bring awareness to chronic illnesses. Someday, I might get there.
What's your theme song? And do you have a secret reality show dream?
Oh, and don't you miss Panic! At The Disco? I loved them. I know they still sort of exist, but it just isn't the same. I have a poster of them hanging in my bedroom, right over my bed. Right next to my Metallica poster.