Monday, May 21, 2012


For quite a few years now, I've been almost certain that I have ADHD. If you've seen the movie "Up", you might remember when Dug says "My master made me this collar. He is a good and smart master and he made me this collar so that I may speak. Squirrel!" and he gets distracted? That's me. All the time.

Easily Distracted and a Poor Memory; I Would Never Survive a Maze
And then I've noticed that at work, I have the worst memory in the world. I take people's orders and I will go to prepare their food, and if I don't repeat it over and over and over, I'll forget it. Especially when it comes to soda. If they've ordered two drinks, and they say they'd like a Coke, then I ask if they'd like Regular or Diet, then they tell me what other drink they'd like, like a Pink Lemonade or something, I will forget what type of Coke they wanted. And when people order, they tend to list off everything they want. So I have to remember where all the buttons are, remember their whole list of food items, and then remember what their specifications are when I go get their food. So I have to repeat everything multiple times. It sucks.

I had this one lady who was so upset by me repeating everything and my memory problems that she stuck her hand in my face, did that little head bob thing people do when they're angry or they think you're an idiot, and then repeated it all again like I was some idiot. I really didn't appreciate that. And it wasn't like I was taking forever to get her the food she ordered.

And there I go, getting distracted again. Anyways... I have been easily distracted since I was little, but never have I had a bad memory. Some of my nicknames have been encyclopedia, dictionary, and radio. I remember everything and I can pull random facts out of thin air. So this horrible memory thing has been pretty frustrating. I can't remember the words I want to use, and often times I can't even remember what I was saying halfway through a sentence. Is it just me? Am I starting to get lazy and I'm just not paying attention like I used to? Is this the Lupus Fog I'm always hearing about?

There's a part of me that would really like to talk to my doctor and say "Hey, my brain isn't working the way it used to", but at the same time, I sort of feel like a hypochondriac. Is it all in my imagination?

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